i am possibly at one of my lowest points right now, being here in UK. since turning 21, nothing seems to be going right. is there something about turning 21 which makes the first few days full of shit, to test if you really are matured enough to handle these? cos it sucks.
last night (or early this morning, rather), i completed the last of my assignments: the oral communication speech and the essay. Everything was done at 3.30am, all that was left was editing, rehearsing and bibliography. I came back from the place i was studying at all geared up for doing the bibliography, and then catching some much needed sleep. so, imagine my horror when at 4am, an attempt to save my bibliography file on my memory stick proved impossible because it was suddenly inaccessible. yes, INACCESSIBLE. the bloody message that popped up was that i had to format the drive, but doing so would mean i lose all my work, period.
naturally, i was upset. i was angry. i was pissed. at 4am in the morning, a grumpy and pissed yuen mei is not nice to put up with. thanks ran and alwyn for putting up with me. ran happened to still be awake, doing the speech too, so i went down to see if it could work on her laptop, praying that it would. it didn't. so we called alwyn, waking the poor guy up and asking if we could test my memory stick on his mac notebook. the nice guy immediately came over with his laptop, but it couldnt even detect my memory stick. so, all hope was pretty much lost, and i nearly had a breakdown. the shitty events before this were piling up, and i honestly was this close to just giving up. but i still have assignments to hand in in like, 9 hours, so i couldn't.
nice alwyn came up to my room and tried to figure out what was wrong for more than an hour. but like i said, it was a lost case, so alwyn went back to sleep while i finished doing the biblio rather dejectedly. then i emailed my lecturer to explain the situation and requesting for an extension. and i went to take short rest.
first thing i did when i woke was to check my email. my lecturer replied, and he was so nice to grant me an extension till wednesday! but alas, i am leaving for barcelona tmr, so i have to hand it in by tmr no matter what. fine enough, at least i wrote out the main points of my speech on my cards early, so i could still deliver the speech. a trip to the computer center proved futile, for all they could say was "we don't do repairs." right then and there, i began wishing that i was in NUS, because NUS would try to figure out the problem for you, at the very least. and i so wanted to go home cos i felt so troubled and lost and stressed and alone. the person did tell me about a computer shop at the student union building which might be able to have a look at my memory stick, so i went there. but when you're down on your luck, you will always be down on your luck. the stupid shop was not open; it will only open at 12 noon today!!! of all days... so i gave up, went back, took a short nap and prepared for my speech.
the speech itself was alright, i was shaking cos i was so scared that even more bad things will happen, like i'd forget what i wanted to say or something. but it went smoothly, the only good thing which happened thus far. i wore my peranakan costume for the speech cos i was talking about multiculturalism and felt that it was apt. immediately upon returning, i realized that one of the straps had broke!!! like, what the fuck. how much fucking worse could my day get?!
so yes, i am in a very very very bad mood right now, and let's just say that when i am in a bad mood, don't fucking piss me off. unfortunately, someone did, though i tried to control myself and not say it out, but really. please. if you can't keep quiet, then please leave me alone. like really really.
oh, and i have to rewrite my two assignments again. and i don't even want to think about the rest of the files i lost, all of which are of importance to me.
can my life get any shittier than this? would the person cursing me stop it right now and leave me the hell alone? why, of all people, do i always end up having to face shit like this?! i must have done something terrible in my past life.
i don't want to have to deal with this right now. my last few days here have been ruined.
-------------------A world Of PeaCe--------------- ; {7:08 PM}
